No Forgiveness Deserved

With everything that has been in the news whether whole truth or partial truth because lets face it who the hell knows what to believe anymore in the media, I find myself fuming. 

There are two subjects that hit me hardest and that is: Abuse and Child Molesters (Rapists, Pedophiles, whatever the hell it’s the same damn category)……..

As I am not a violent person I cannot begin to describe how it upsets me when people that have done these things get away with it. Some of you may think I am crazy for saying this but I believe in capital punishment especially for child molesters, rapists, etc. 

I sit here and I try to type and cannot even think clearly because it bothers me so. Not only did I endure abuse but I was molested too by a man I wish was dead. Many people out there have their stories and yet no amount of therapy and no amount of support can ever take those memories away. 

Forgiveness is so easily thrown into sentences, forgiveness to go on, forgiveness not necessarily for the perpetrator but for yourself so you can move on. Advice greatly appreciated. I’m still not able to forgive. I cannot forgive what still haunts me.

I want to tell any of you that have been abused or molested/raped that it is not your fault. You have to make sure you keep telling yourself that. 

This is harder than I thought writing on this. I’m sorry. If any of you are still haunted just know that someone somewhere out there cares. I do. I care. I may be a stranger but we all have our stories. 

For all you abusers and child molesters out there I hope you all fucking rot. Capital punishment in the form of public hanging should never have been outlawed because people like yourselves who abuse and molest/rape people deserve to die and deserve no forgiveness. I’m not sorry for stating this. I’m speaking on behalf of survivors!!!! 

 

 

 

 

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Mist

To walk into a room empty with space and time still 

No laughter no movement just numbness 

A mist upon the air I walk through

Reaching for a hand that is not mine nor there

I breathe deeply and fall slowly through the floor

The sound resonates with me as it all disappears

Trapped in a time capsule in my mind I stare 

Sheets of bright light float around my body as echos whisper

Hold on I tell myself as I’m in a trance listening

The mist lifts me closer to the light away from what

 

 

Dear Ignorance: LOVE WILL ALWAYS WIN!

Honestly I don’t even know where to start. Everything lately that is going on in this world sickens me to the core, depresses me, and I know I am not the only one it all has impacted. It takes me out of my element because yes I do wear the world on my shoulders as I have always been told. The hardest part for me is knowing that my child has to grow up in such a cruel world. I beg all of you people out there reading this to spread love and peace each day and not just after atrocities happen. Stand up for what you believe in but do it peacefully. Love will always win because in the end as the saying goes we all breath the same air and bleed blood just as anyone does who gets cut. We all need to understand something and my motto has always been “Learn History But Do Not Live It”, we need to let history be just that: History. I understand the outrage with Historical monuments, statues and so forth but at the same time are we going to change street signs or names of countries or names of buildings? While I do NOT condone hate in any form I do feel that tearing History apart is like tearing into our souls. Each generation has to learn history so history does not repeat itself. However if we delete History as an educational sense then what are we teaching future generations to help them understand why hatred is not the answer if no one else will? My point is where my heart is with everyone of the world and especially with what has been going on in America lately I feel that the division will not stop until ALL people, ALL sides sit back and THINK for a moment. Is taking down history solving anything? No. My wish for all of humanity is to find peace and love within because that is where it starts. 

Sweet Nectar

The essence of love and hate

Nectar so sweet yet so dividing

Poison consuming yet revitalizing 

Do you see or taste it

Nectar invisible by the blind buds

It may be sweet but the sour is there

Burning sensation on every tissue

Sweet Nectar may linger 

It may forever consume you

No Words

No words describe my bleeding heart

Each time the sound of the world stabs me

I feel so broken inside my mind cries

My heart cries for peace and love for all

Sometimes my soul can’t take the burden 

They always said I wore the world on my shoulders

I still do

No words can mend my bleeding heart

My bleeding heart bleeds for all

No words

 

Let Go Just So

The days go by I age with wonder

Hurt inside I tend to ponder

Revolting emotions when images return

Make peace within I’d rather you burn

Touched me the vulnerable girl

Who spat at you and laughed at the world

Not a day goes by that I wish you were dead

Hoping you’d just get out of my head

You’ll never take the little girl out of me

No matter how old I get can’t you see

Think you can break me sneaking in my mind

You won’t win not this time

As days go by I age with wonder

I refuse to go down under

MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS/JUSTICE!

As the New Year of 2017 is not even a full week over, the most horrific things around the world have continued to happen. Especially recently in the United States of America. I am appalled by what so many cold hearted people have done to others and yet this is supposed to be a Country of Unity!

Mental Health Care is something that is needed for ALL individuals that desire it but also for individuals that are incapable of making that decision. That is why we need to stand together and BE THERE for one another! A listening ear and a shoulder to lean on for those that have no one, for those that feel so lost and cannot even cope with themselves let alone the people in the world. Society needs intervention! Why does it take horrible events to happen for people to pull together and even then not everyone unites?! 

I always say there are people worse off. The one thing that bothers me is you can take a handful of people whom have been through horrific circumstances and they make that choice they choose to be kind to others and loving and yet you have that handful of people that have also gone through some horrific circumstances and they choose to kill, to rape, torture, to humiliate, abuse others. Many of us wish to know why. I don’t think there will ever be an explanation. The only thing I know is if Mental Health Care were affordable and possibly freely provided to the public by truly compassionate people that maybe just maybe society would have a chance. Then again some people are just pure evil. If someone has the urge to kill or rape or torture that to me is pure evil. I will be the first person to a million percent support people who get help and turn their lives around but Mental Health Care can only do so much and then Justice plays a role. Humanity of all needs to help one another………..

  1. TRULY Love 
  2. TRULY Listen
  3. TRULY Care

 

 

 

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