No Forgiveness Deserved

With everything that has been in the news whether whole truth or partial truth because lets face it who the hell knows what to believe anymore in the media, I find myself fuming. 

There are two subjects that hit me hardest and that is: Abuse and Child Molesters (Rapists, Pedophiles, whatever the hell it’s the same damn category)……..

As I am not a violent person I cannot begin to describe how it upsets me when people that have done these things get away with it. Some of you may think I am crazy for saying this but I believe in capital punishment especially for child molesters, rapists, etc. 

I sit here and I try to type and cannot even think clearly because it bothers me so. Not only did I endure abuse but I was molested too by a man I wish was dead. Many people out there have their stories and yet no amount of therapy and no amount of support can ever take those memories away. 

Forgiveness is so easily thrown into sentences, forgiveness to go on, forgiveness not necessarily for the perpetrator but for yourself so you can move on. Advice greatly appreciated. I’m still not able to forgive. I cannot forgive what still haunts me.

I want to tell any of you that have been abused or molested/raped that it is not your fault. You have to make sure you keep telling yourself that. 

This is harder than I thought writing on this. I’m sorry. If any of you are still haunted just know that someone somewhere out there cares. I do. I care. I may be a stranger but we all have our stories. 

For all you abusers and child molesters out there I hope you all fucking rot. Capital punishment in the form of public hanging should never have been outlawed because people like yourselves who abuse and molest/rape people deserve to die and deserve no forgiveness. I’m not sorry for stating this. I’m speaking on behalf of survivors!!!! 

 

 

 

 

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Mist

To walk into a room empty with space and time still 

No laughter no movement just numbness 

A mist upon the air I walk through

Reaching for a hand that is not mine nor there

I breathe deeply and fall slowly through the floor

The sound resonates with me as it all disappears

Trapped in a time capsule in my mind I stare 

Sheets of bright light float around my body as echos whisper

Hold on I tell myself as I’m in a trance listening

The mist lifts me closer to the light away from what

 

 

Sweet Nectar

The essence of love and hate

Nectar so sweet yet so dividing

Poison consuming yet revitalizing 

Do you see or taste it

Nectar invisible by the blind buds

It may be sweet but the sour is there

Burning sensation on every tissue

Sweet Nectar may linger 

It may forever consume you

No Words

No words describe my bleeding heart

Each time the sound of the world stabs me

I feel so broken inside my mind cries

My heart cries for peace and love for all

Sometimes my soul can’t take the burden 

They always said I wore the world on my shoulders

I still do

No words can mend my bleeding heart

My bleeding heart bleeds for all

No words

 

Let Go Just So

The days go by I age with wonder

Hurt inside I tend to ponder

Revolting emotions when images return

Make peace within I’d rather you burn

Touched me the vulnerable girl

Who spat at you and laughed at the world

Not a day goes by that I wish you were dead

Hoping you’d just get out of my head

You’ll never take the little girl out of me

No matter how old I get can’t you see

Think you can break me sneaking in my mind

You won’t win not this time

As days go by I age with wonder

I refuse to go down under

I Will Not Succumb

As I mince the words of love and peace

 My words won’t change how cruel humanity has become

I will not succumb

My soul will continue to fly with love

Love Letter to World

World

Waters flowing

Intensity ongoing

Beaded with misery

Clenching

Hope rising

Inflicting pain

Unity

Don’t fail me

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