Feathers

Frail feathers among the fallen

Reaching for a reason of purpose

Sensing the aura of the world

Chaos inflicted upon the innocence

Softness of each falling one by one

Protection yearned by the vulnerable

Making sense of sudden doom

A bright light shines through darkness

With each stare each ones frailty

Turning around tight roped at each end

Perpetuating weakness yet strength

A tear of a fallen angels magic

The tear that saves humanity

Purpose

Purpose, what is it, where do we find ours out, how do we find out what our purpose in life is? The answer is complex yet also continuous in our individual journeys. Outside of family and friends we each seek our purpose. Regardless of religious or spiritual background we each seek a need to fulfill our main purpose in this life. At my age I am still seeking. This year was my big 40 and let me just say that I have come very far with everything in life and hopefully much wiser. Career wise……zero. I get so low on myself always having the thought that something is wrong with me or why am I not good enough. I have had so many odd and end jobs in my life though grateful but when it boils down to really being content and wishing I could have a set career as so many have I do not. My learning disability never stopped me from reaching out but it is almost like you get weeded out or somehow if in your background check it shows you are in therapy you get weeded out too. Maybe I am wrong but it seems that way. I still never stopped trying. I had high hopes that just throwing myself out there and attempting to get hired on with places I already knew would never give me the time and day that I would somehow still fulfill my purpose that I would get lucky enough somehow to thrive and make something of my first degree from college so many years ago. Nothing. I stared at it before after taking it out of my keepsake folder and put it back. A very dear person once told me that I should display it to remind me how far I have come because it is something to be proud of. I never did. Never displayed it because it has only depressed me and made me feel worthless in society. No I am not self loathing and yes I have always told myself there are people worse off but many of you know the background I came from. I push and push and push and I may persevere but then hit a brick wall because it seems like nothing career wise is written in the stars for me. I started subbing for our local schools in January this year and reached out about getting an Emergency Teaching Certificate, no responses. I even wrote a letter to the center for Missing and Exploited Children and even one of the FBI headquarters hoping to help them somehow. Nothing. I reached out to our local shelter for victims of abuse to do a book signing to raise money for them but made it known I do not wish for glorification. Nothing. So many different things I have tried to reach out upon and nothing absolutely nothing. I questioned the universe selfishly asking what is my purpose? I think I found the answer. Exist and share your love with the world. So I will, I will make my crafts, keep writing, hopefully publishing  a second book of poetry in years to come, and just be there for people best I can be. I may not have a career but I have one of the most important qualities humans can have: Love. With that said you all are entitled to feel and embrace your ups and downs but just remember you are more than just a purpose. 

Peace, Love, Light,

Sara-Loretta Hardin

Fence

To think upon the night

The fence along the field

Thoughts blocked by a gate

Vanquishing all that enter

Like a barrier of power

To lose control is not a curse

Internal reflections uphold

With heaving hearts conjure

Another world to open

Taking flight in the darkness

Mending the torn threads

Relying on nothing but one self

To flee from the tampered fence

Mind tricks unbeknownst

Leverage no longer there

One must find the way

Escaping the wrath within

Nearly falling from the cliff

A brink towards insanity

But what is life without 

A fence that cannot be broken

Melanin

You are not just your melanin

You are somebody

Beauty in the vast seas

Overcoming obstacles

Courage and strength 

Not just melanin

You are more than that

Hearts beat the same

Blood as bold

Never be ashamed

To own your melanin

Embrace that part of you

Show the world you are more

More than the melanin you wear

Honor your people

With love and fierceness

You are needed too

You have a purpose

Kiss your children goodnight

Tell them they are

More than their melanin

 

Recent Additions

Hello everyone! As many of you know whom have followed me on “wordpress” I do have an online store making random crafts. Please enjoy taking a look at some of my randomness and thank you all for any support. Currently I will be working on some more wood burning with hopes to get better at it and also some holiday wreaths coming up. Also my poetry book is finally available on Amazon too so I will share the link as well. Wishing you all a wonderful day!

Peace, Bliss, Love, and Light,

Sara-Loretta Hardin

Store: https://weltfriedenstellacraftboutique.webnode.page/online-store/

Poetry Book: https://www.amazon.com/Random-Thoughts-Floating-Sara-Loretta-Hardin/dp/1329652886/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1QYDZ379DAW27&keywords=Random+Thoughts+By+A+Floating+Star&qid=1659981993&s=books&sprefix=random+thoughts+by+a+floating+star%2Cstripbooks%2C78&sr=1-1

 

Time Inevitable

Today I sent my son off to high school, with a warm hug, and endearing smile of anxiety, and words of encouragement to him. I wrote him a letter and watched him take it in afterschool. I admire him, more than he even realizes. Through triumphs, happiness, sadness, questioning life as we continue to explore it, I can honestly say that he has become wiser than I ever was. One thing for sure is I broke the cycle. The cycle of abuse my mom and I endured. Not a perfect home but a loving home he has and will always have. If there is one thing I could change it would be the very beginning. To know and remember what it was like to hold him the very first time. To stop time in its tracks and tune out the surrounding chaos and just breathe in his presence and forever keep that moment in my heart. All we have is time, memories, and sometimes those dissipate. Time really is inevitable, you have to make of it what you wish to, what matters most to your heart. In the end that’s all that’s left in this world. Time. So today is a proud day for me as a mom because I am grateful to be his mom and watch him flourish in life. Keep flying my son.

Cherish time and memories,

Peace, Love, Light, and Bliss to you all,

Sara-Loretta Hardin

ENOUGH

Awhile back as I mentioned I deleted all my writings except for my poetry because I said I would leave my thoughts for my therapy sessions, however I feel emptiness and hurt and sadness for society, our world, especially the country that has been irrevocably cursed with mass shootings upon mass shootings. Therefor I write, I write for not only myself, for those lost, but for all of you whom may be fumbling with words and inner thoughts to convey and say what you are trying to say: ENOUGH…

When is it going to stop? The hate, the division, the constant finger pointing, the dehumanizing just because some people have different views, the constant belittling, the bullying, the systemic tear downs between the rich and the poor, the religious and spiritual battles, the mental health care crisis that should not always be used as an excuse for evil……. WHEN WILL IT STOP?

You want gun control you want mental healthcare you want you want you want but still many of you do NOTHING AT ALL to help make this world a better place. You want to blame others and constantly find ways to blame it all on mental healthcare crisis or gun control when it is MORE than that! It is how WE as humans are to one another! It is how we mold our children and LOVE unconditionally, help nurture, no matter the trauma any of us endured in life! Many of us do not go on a killing spree and many of us have mental health issues. So STOP right there with the constant victimizing of those evil people committing these atrocities because there simply is NO EXCUSE. I am tired of having empathy for those people who kill the innocent just because of what they endured. This has gone too far! I am tired of people blaming it on gun control because I will tell you right now that no matter what some evil person will get their hands on one regardless of how tight gun control could be! WAKE UP!

IT IS CALLED SELF-ACCOUNTABILITY…………until then these things will continue to happen and my heart honestly can’t take anymore of the news, of the negativity, of the demise of our world and this country the land of the free called America. I will continue to keep my faith in humans but I have lost faith in this place called the land of the free and this constitution. 

Lastly I want to thank all of the people in the world that do have whole loving hearts that make the sacrifices you do to try to keep what is left of this world together. 

It starts at home, it starts behind the school doors, it starts in every neighborhood, every state, every country, every continent, but most of all within ourselves, our hearts, to want to change, and be better humans, and acknowledge our differences, without hate, hold conversations with open minds, and understand that we need to have conversations but for god sakes we should not have to have these type of conversations over and over again, no others should have to die, so speak up and do something, don’t just be a bystander. 

I have nothing else to say……….

Peace, Love, and Bliss to you all,

Sara-Loretta Hardin

 

Published

Hello my fellow writers/readers! I am so excited to announce as of the other day I published my very first book of poetry. It includes all the poems many of you have been able to view on the site. With that said I have dedicated the entirety of it to all victims and survivors of abuse. This is very important to me and eventually I hope to donate partial proceeds from my revenue after the publishing company takes their percentage. Thank you all so much for any support! 

Here is the link: https://www.lulu.com/shop/sara-loretta-hardin/random-thoughts-by-a-floating-star/paperback/product-w8qm55.html?q=random+thoughts+by+a+floating+star&page=1&pageSize=4

Please feel free to share the link as I appreciate any support! 

Peace, Love, Bliss, and Light to you all always,

Sara-Loretta Hardin

Drift

Another plane of existence

The here and now

The beginning the end

Evolves in a time not alive

In a place between life and death

Our souls pained

Yet alive from endurance

Alive from love

From anything unfathomable

When did we start

In this world to be

There is something more

Farther than we see

Unexplainable beyond time itself

Yet time is that which is taken for granted

As it drifts further away

All that’s left are memories

My Store

Hi everyone! It has been a long time since I have written an actual blog. The reason many of you whom know my work have probably seen my blogs become obsolete is that I have decided to protect myself and keep my feelings within my therapy sessions. For those of you whom have stumbled upon my work for the first time I am a freelance poet/writer and current licensed substitute teacher. Eventually I wish to publish my poetry in book form and donate part of the proceeds to causes close to my heart. I hold an Associates in Science towards Psychology from 2006 which was a great accomplishment of mine considering my struggles. My paths changed in life, after odd and end jobs, not being hired on many places I attempted where I felt I could have helped in so many ways I gave up applying. I decided to follow my niche which is my writing and crafting. A few years ago I started an online store and I will link that here after the blog. I always felt out of place in this world, being a survivor of childhood/adolescence abuse, with a learning disability finally diagnosed properly in adulthood, and still I choose to try to inspire others somehow. No matter the triumphs, the stories we all have we have to make a step forward, we have to learn to embrace every part of ourselves, and literally detach from our past. We have to be better humans, we have to face our fears and learn that we can overcome anything if we just try. My biggest hope for this world that I still have is peace. My biggest hope for myself is that one day I will learn to love myself completely. Thank you all for viewing and if you have any questions do not hesitate to reach out to me. 

Peace, Love, Bliss, and Light,

Sara-Loretta Hardin

https://weltfriedenstellacraftboutique.webnode.page/

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