Differentiate the Obvious

Many of you whom have read my blogs and closely paid attention know that I am one of many advocates for mental health. Not only do I acknowledge that in this world “mental health” is a serious issue I also am open minded enough not to judge a book by its cover and wise enough to know the difference between a person who needs help with their “mental health” and/or a person who is just plain “cold hearted”.

Obviously we have both. However our media tends to glorify the individuals that have either hurt or killed many people over these past and recent events. The media should stop giving copy cat killers the advantage. This goes beyond “mental health”. If we are to as a society help put and end to these atrocities we have to be one step ahead. One of those main steps is stop giving these “cold hearted” type personalities glorification. 

So many want to make excuses for these sick individuals but I will say this: We ALL have our stories of having survived abuse or bullying and many of us NEVER attempted or killed anyone. This is where my belief that it’s not just “mental health” comes in. Please acknowledge that sometimes a person is just that “cold hearted”. Sometimes I am just sick of the excuses that society plays out. 

Do I care about a killers background story? Damn right I do! However I differentiate the obvious.

Please spread love and peace in the names of anyone that has ever been abused, raped, murdered…………………. 




I could claw at my being the way your hate burns me from the inside out

Turning one to one to another against each other through fetishes of turmoil

You make me want to crawl into a hole because the darkness of it outshines what you show the world

Escape will never come until I’m gone but until then I fight

I fight against the hate, the bigotry, the world as it presents itself regardless of ethnicity

Until my last breath I will be myself, I will be human

Go ahead and categorize me without knowing me

At least when I die I will have died knowing that I gave a shit

Pure fucking compassion

That’s me

Always crying for People

People that don’t give a shit

But I do……I always will

I love you all

I want to love me too

So please let me


No Forgiveness Deserved

With everything that has been in the news whether whole truth or partial truth because lets face it who the hell knows what to believe anymore in the media, I find myself fuming. 

There are two subjects that hit me hardest and that is: Abuse and Child Molesters (Rapists, Pedophiles, whatever the hell it’s the same damn category)……..

As I am not a violent person I cannot begin to describe how it upsets me when people that have done these things get away with it. Some of you may think I am crazy for saying this but I believe in capital punishment especially for child molesters, rapists, etc. 

I sit here and I try to type and cannot even think clearly because it bothers me so. Not only did I endure abuse but I was molested too by a man I wish was dead. Many people out there have their stories and yet no amount of therapy and no amount of support can ever take those memories away. 

Forgiveness is so easily thrown into sentences, forgiveness to go on, forgiveness not necessarily for the perpetrator but for yourself so you can move on. Advice greatly appreciated. I’m still not able to forgive. I cannot forgive what still haunts me.

I want to tell any of you that have been abused or molested/raped that it is not your fault. You have to make sure you keep telling yourself that. 

This is harder than I thought writing on this. I’m sorry. If any of you are still haunted just know that someone somewhere out there cares. I do. I care. I may be a stranger but we all have our stories. 

For all you abusers and child molesters out there I hope you all fucking rot. Capital punishment in the form of public hanging should never have been outlawed because people like yourselves who abuse and molest/rape people deserve to die and deserve no forgiveness. I’m not sorry for stating this. I’m speaking on behalf of survivors!!!! 






Honestly I don’t even know where to start. Everything lately that is going on in this world sickens me to the core, depresses me, and I know I am not the only one it all has impacted. It takes me out of my element because yes I do wear the world on my shoulders as I have always been told. The hardest part for me is knowing that my child has to grow up in such a cruel world. I beg all of you people out there reading this to spread love and peace each day and not just after atrocities happen. Stand up for what you believe in but do it peacefully. Love will always win because in the end as the saying goes we all breath the same air and bleed blood just as anyone does who gets cut. We all need to understand something and my motto has always been “Learn History But Do Not Live It”, we need to let history be just that: History. I understand the outrage with Historical monuments, statues and so forth but at the same time are we going to change street signs or names of countries or names of buildings? While I do NOT condone hate in any form I do feel that tearing History apart is like tearing into our souls. Each generation has to learn history so history does not repeat itself. However if we delete History as an educational sense then what are we teaching future generations to help them understand why hatred is not the answer if no one else will? My point is where my heart is with everyone of the world and especially with what has been going on in America lately I feel that the division will not stop until ALL people, ALL sides sit back and THINK for a moment. Is taking down history solving anything? No. My wish for all of humanity is to find peace and love within because that is where it starts. 


As the New Year of 2017 is not even a full week over, the most horrific things around the world have continued to happen. Especially recently in the United States of America. I am appalled by what so many cold hearted people have done to others and yet this is supposed to be a Country of Unity!

Mental Health Care is something that is needed for ALL individuals that desire it but also for individuals that are incapable of making that decision. That is why we need to stand together and BE THERE for one another! A listening ear and a shoulder to lean on for those that have no one, for those that feel so lost and cannot even cope with themselves let alone the people in the world. Society needs intervention! Why does it take horrible events to happen for people to pull together and even then not everyone unites?! 

I always say there are people worse off. The one thing that bothers me is you can take a handful of people whom have been through horrific circumstances and they make that choice they choose to be kind to others and loving and yet you have that handful of people that have also gone through some horrific circumstances and they choose to kill, to rape, torture, to humiliate, abuse others. Many of us wish to know why. I don’t think there will ever be an explanation. The only thing I know is if Mental Health Care were affordable and possibly freely provided to the public by truly compassionate people that maybe just maybe society would have a chance. Then again some people are just pure evil. If someone has the urge to kill or rape or torture that to me is pure evil. I will be the first person to a million percent support people who get help and turn their lives around but Mental Health Care can only do so much and then Justice plays a role. Humanity of all needs to help one another………..

  1. TRULY Love 
  2. TRULY Listen
  3. TRULY Care




Dear Future Leaders Of The World

Dear Future Leaders of the World,

We the People of the World the people that do truly care need YOU the Future Leaders of the World to understand that we NEED someone to lead every Nation that is Compassionate, Loyal, Honest, and well rounded in mindset. Whether man or woman the leader should be educated and understanding of ALL cultures and RESPECTFUL enough to WANT to be there for the people and stand up for EVERYONE regardless of ethnicity, gender, religion, or disability. WE need someone who says what they mean, does not care about media trophies, isn’t money hungry, doesn’t try to fool people just because they think they are a great con artist, and who deems that security means security for ALL not just specific groups. We need Leaders who don’t judge a book by its cover! 

Most importantly children of the World need people they can actually look up to. My question is: Where are you? 

I Will Not Succumb

As I mince the words of love and peace

 My words won’t change how cruel humanity has become

I will not succumb

My soul will continue to fly with love

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